Unfazed

I decided to call it a day at 8pm today, though i still have some work to clear. I went to the gym. They changed all the threadmills and i have trouble setting them. I like going gym at that time. the music is no longer blasting and the gym is almost empty. Realised that i am no longer obsessed with my body. Gym time has become an integral part of my life. To destress, to have some quiet time with my music.

I went cd browsing after gym. I bought two cds, as pic above.


I am not a fan of Mayday. But last week, i was listening to the Kl radio station. They were doing this interview with Mayday.
I love the song 知足 .

“如果你爱的人不在因你而笑。可能该时侯放手了。”阿信wrote this song after parting with his gal. he wrote this song. its a little corny. But i love it, for many particular reasons, esp the lyrics.

The other cd is from Alan Tam. its more like a collaboration cd with many of my fave singers. Esp this song. 舊情復熾 by 譚詠麟/關淑怡. I love 關淑怡. Unfortunately , she is in the limelight for only a glimpse.

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I have been working very hard for the past week. I have been rushing a lot of deadlines and crafting out some new projects that is in line. It has been for a very long time since I have been so happy immersing myself in work. I am the most productive when i am happy at work. I can finish tons of work even when i am fused. With this new spark in work, i clinch a few good deals for the next work year, just in a matter of 7 productive days. Is it mere luck? I take it as a blessing with a pinch of sheer credit to hard work.

I yearn to go to Botanic Garden next sunday for another lazy afternoon. It oozes tranquility, i can actually sort out a lot of thoughts while strolling in the park. I used to do that whenever i am troubled. These days, i go there , more as to unwind or to think thru work. It helps. The place holds much memories as well.

I have not been discussing my thoughts much to anyone recently. Solely because i am not good at it and i believe if there is nothing we can do to resolve any own issues, who more could aid any assistance. But i am perfectly fine. its just that there are lots on my mind.Just a brief of whatever that has been in my trains of thoughts. For all who care for my well being.

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Next year. It is going to be an enthralling year. I can almost see the next half year work plan.

Even though i have declined the position in Hongkong, I have agreed to projects, on an ad hoc basis, after much insistence from HK side. It will be more work, and more trips to mainland China. [Yes, sat morning wake up call is from HK!]

Like what i have said, i have a major project with my ex-lecturer, that is underway. This will occupy another chunk of my time in S'pore. Above that, I am continuing with what i have on hand now , till the former takes off to a more mature level.

In a nutshell, its juggling 3 jobs with ,perhaps, 7days 12 hours work for the first few months of the year. Its actually not what i am looking forward. I mean the time consumption in the jobs.Its madness. I am fine and happy with all the nature of the jobs. In fact, the exposure is what i am anticipating. But i have promised myself to give myself every Sunday off next year or just a day of the week..and i am rather determined to keep to it. But it seems wavering. I am not really fazed about the financial aspect to cutting back on my work hours, but its the responsibilties to uphold , which is what that is diffcult to shake off. I am more worried that i will snap physically..sigh..till i find a compromise to this.

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I have been going thru pangs of self reflections lately...in bouts actually.

I have always believe that truth prevails.That everything will fall in place, in its own rights. These days, i concur not- It is up to ourselves to make a difference, to uphold the nakedness in the face of truth.

I received an email, stating the well being of my father recently. He is going thru a tough time. After much thoughts and ego turmoil, i have decided to put down my resentment aside. I wrote an email to him. Perhaps, i will make a trip there to visit him, if time permits, soon enough. I am not striving to be some filial son at this juncture. i am not apt for this sort. it is just that there is not a need to brood over whatever could be ,have been. We just have to learn to let go of these bad vibes. let go. it will make us feel better. Not necessarily a better person. Just a little less pent up.

i think i wrote too much. i 'd better stop here.

nite folks.