Those whom the gods would destroy they first make angry.

I read an interview , with Bill Clinton, in a magazine a long time back. This quote has always been etched in my mind since. I believe I have it in my head somewhere all the time. And it came to use again today.

I have been having a persistent high fever for the whole of the week. I was very afraid cause I have a very important paper to present today. And I have to do a lot , a lot of research and work prior to that. Perhaps its myself, but the pressure and frustration of it all was immense. I tried to live oblivious to the fact that I was running a fever. I went about doing my work etc, trying to brush the fever aside. Popping pills as and when to subdue it.

I overrated my capacity, forgot my youth is almost gone. And most of all, I undermined my health. After lunch with a pal that day, my fever shot up to a high of 38.9. I felt really giddy but pushed ahead till evening before going to the doc to get stronger antibiotics.

I was rather proud of myself, yesterday, that I pulled through and got my speech and presentation done up to my mark.

But today I was hit by a non-stop hiccup as soon as my fever subsides last night. I can never present well croaking thru the entire presentation. I think I did not do well today. But I managed to keep my composure though I was really angry with myself. Cause I remember this very quote - Those whom the gods would destroy they first make angry.

Regardless. I felt utterly, completely defeated by myself today. A battle fought in vain.
He feels completely, utterly defeated today.

19 minutes

I finished this book about a month back. I have too lazy to put this entry up. I blame it on the festive season, the booze and all the dramas.

Anyway, Jodi Picoult has to be my new most respected American writer , to date. I read her bestseller - Sister's keeper, a few years back. This is the second of hers that I picked up. This has been such a compelling read, if not better than my previous read.

*****

" Who is "more" wrong? A bunch of rogue that constantly abuses a young boy for 12 years of his life vs a young chap instantly killing a bunch of rogues during a emotional outbreak.

I asked Jon this a few week back.

We have no answer .

But one thing for sure - sometimes, a destiny is craved not in the will of people.

Crying in the Party

名稱：CRYING IN THE PARTY
歌手：陳奕迅
作曲：黎小田
填詞：黃偉文
編曲：褚鎮東
監製：陳奕迅, Davy Chan, C.Y.
(C) 2007 Cinepoly Records Co. Ltd.

熱播的歌 忽爾靜了 場邊 一聲慘叫
好友都靠近了 你沒有被忘掉
觀眾 預了分擔惡兆

大喝三杯 失控地笑 孩子 終於哭了
空氣的震盪裡 你沒說但心照
某個事情大概 不妙了

因一個人痛哭 哭崩派對舞曲
我也曾像這樣 青春大概相似
總有段情 落入這種 困局

或有一天 當你大了 城府 開始深了
年輕的眼淚流光了 便掛念曾經這樣了

讓你哭泣 哭到倦了 重整 呼吸心跳
哭過吵過鬧過 你為愛做足了
再接下來就要 收拾了

因一個人痛哭 哭崩派對舞曲
我也曾像這樣 青春大概相似
總有段情 落入這種 困局

或有一天 當你大了 城府 開始深了
年輕的眼淚流光了 便掛念曾經這樣了

是 所有熱情會乾掉
一發現已經 成熟了

" Do you believe that when God gives you one thing , he will take another away from you?"

A kid asked me this today and it left me stumbled for an answer.
I wanted to tell a white lie to him but i just couldnt.
I told him that what he said was perfectly true.
And more than most of the time, whatever that was bestowed or stashed away , was not our choice.
The best solution to it all is to accept whatever that happens with an open heart.
And take trust in which ever God you believe in - and knowing that he/she will only want us to go through this for a reason that we may not understand at this point.
And that Time, will be the best friend there to help in forgetting what ever that was snatched away. It also reminds us of any good that has stay. And hopefully, we will emerge stronger , if not happier.

Do u think so?