saw this in someone's blog

A simple meaningful story…..

The angel asked, "You aren't happy. How can I help you?"

The poet replied, "I have everything. But I lack only one thing. Can
you
give it to me?"

To which the angel happily said, "Sure. I can give you anything you
desired."

The poet stared right into the angel's eyes, "I want happiness."

"All right," the angel nodded. And the angel proceed to take away
everything the poet possessed. The angel took away the poet's talent,
destroyed his looks, robbed his riches and killed his wife. The angel
then
left for heaven.

A month later, the angel appeared in front of the poet. The poet was
lying on the ground, half dead, hungry and struggling for survival. The angel
then returned him everything he once possessed and left for heaven
again.

Two weeks later, the angel paid a visit to the poet. This time, the
poet, together with his wife, thanked the angel profusely. He finally found
happiness.

~~~~~~~~~
Often, a person need to lose everything before he/she know how to
cherish.
Actually, happiness is right in front of you. Just what is
happiness?
When you are hungry, a bowl of hot noodle in front of you is
happiness.
When you are tired, a soft bed is happiness.
> When you are crying, a gentle tissue is happiness.
> ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
>
> Actually, happiness has no definition. Sometimes, small actions can
touch
> your heart.
> Happiness or not, depends on how you look at it.

got tagged..

7 Songs that i am really enjoying now :

1. 爱如潮水+习惯失恋 (Live) - 张信哲/容祖兒
2. The Girl From Ipanema - Astrud Gilberto
3. 明日恩典 - 容祖兒
4. 戰友 - 劉浩龍
5. 愛與誠(Featuring周慧敏) - 古巨基
6. You've Got A Friend - Diva Concert
7. Somewhere Over The Rainbow - Israel Kamakawiwo'ole

yippee

Today was one busy day. But a happy one as well. Rushed to work. Worked up late today :-) Blissful feeling. Cause it means that i slept well last night. Without any sleeping pills or booze . Thats a good start. Think it may be the dive.

Finished work early again today. Rushed to tampines Safra to take my IPPT. My window is not closing yet , but since i am free, i just have to get it done.

I passed anyway. Actually with all 5 pts, but it doesnt make a difference. Cause i am under pes C. No $$. Sigh..

After which have a wonderful dinner with a fren. It was good, but the conversation was better.

Its true. What he said -" if things are beyond your realm of control, why bother to brood over it. Its absolutely pointless ."

But then of course, if all of us can be as up and positive as he does, and think literally this way, think this world will really be one big happy haven. :-)

its a bit cliche, but yup..i am feeling a tad bit lighter after the dinner.

oh yes..both of us fell in love with the new dopod. hmm..i am thinking of getting it for my own X'mas present. Let me procrastinate a bit longer first..but probably wait for him to get first to trial run ..heh

******

Tomorrow have to rush to work early, after which, i have to rush to yacht club for the last pool side test.

Life will only get happier ;-) At least i pray hard that it will.

one dead fish

Yes..it rained! arghhh..very heavy one as well.

Let me brief you all my stressful dive test today. Test is at Republic of S'pore Yacht Club [RSYC]. the pool view was great. Seaview. I was whipping out my mobile to take photos when the instructor shouted for me to gather. Apparently, Alex, my super cute instructor cant make it for today's class, and found another in place. I was grumbling away to myself and to my dismay , the test started before i could swear the last word.

The ten laps swim and 10mins trap air was a breeze. After which, during the safety command test, it started to pour. Yes. When you are just beside the sea, it really pours and the wind trumpets forcefully. The paranomic view at the pool became a dread. Hearing the whimsical voice of an ah beng instructor , beneath the pounding sound of the rain, i was straining to catch his words.

The water temperature plummets. I wanted to pee. Sickening instructor tell me to pee in the pool. I refused, totally revolted with what he was saying [ though it makes sense that the sea is one big loo, but this is a swimming pool..and prissy me just cant do it in front of so many] Barely screap thru safety command test.

After that, was equipment test. Rigging on the equipments and checking the regulators, quality of air etc. It was suposed to be a breeze. But if you are doing in the rain, it immobilize you, disparately. Every task became tougher. Now i do understand the reason behind no compromise in safety in the sea. Its indeed lethal , if you do not do a thorough check.


Thot they will call it the end of the test. After which, its 4m water test. with all the safety check + safety command done 4m deep. I was famished by then. I have err..skipped lunch. Had late breakfast. And work meeting ended late..so i was swearing and cursing to myself again.

I couldnt breathe properly in the regulator, Came up to the water = fail that segment of the test. As such, i have to retake that section..sighh useless me.

It means for thur test [ yes..another one..] i have to reach there at four thirty instead of six. It means 4.30 to 10.30pm in the water. AHHHH..

I am really dreading it ...dunno why i have to put myself thru this..sigh..pure torture

Just rushed home to get my scuba gears and rushing to yacht club for my test. The initial sunny sky is really dark at my place now..hope it doesnt rain or i will be freezing in the water..arghh

Yes

because work has reach another notch, serious dating ..i hope to steer clear. Hopefully. not soon or anywhere near. Work is the last and the only thing that i have yet to screw up.

So i m gonna work it up.

....

I am watching Aaron Kwok 2005 concert dvd whilst blogging away. Its sizzling hot, the concert i mean. It was the concert i wanted to watch , but coldnt get tickets for when i was there then.

A 5am nightmare waking up charters me , again, to forbidden zone.

Yes. I still miss him. God knows when i am gonna stop torturing myself. If you anyone were to read this, please believe me that i am trying my very best shot to get out of this rut , actually more so than anyone could have imagined.

i make all my days as occupied as ever. But its tormenting when night falls. Cause with him around, insomnia was never near.
******

Tomorrow is my diving test. Not quite worried actually, Think i prep enough with all the squats , swims and run.

I had a fantastic meeting just now, though i started off with a bad morning.

This is the strangest part of life. Mine, the very least.

When career reaches another notch, when it seems work are in positive prospective, my personal life inversely equates to negative infinity.

In Mar, when business hits rock bottom, personal life was extremely fufilling.

How i wish there is a moment in time where a balance could be strike, if not the best of both world.

Bemusing bulletin news

Saw this on this week's TIME magazine . Find it rather bemusing.

$117,500 Amount a New Jersey district agreed to pay a teen after a court ruled his right to free speech was violated when he was punished for creating a website critical of teachers.

$12,500 Amount the school board will pay; the remainder will be covered by insurance

..

Woke up from another installment of my dream cont'd.

Another song for you folks.


*******
Bohemian Rhapsody

Is this the real life-
Is this just fantasy-
Caught in a landslide-
No escape from reality-
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see-
I’m just a poor boy,i need no sympathy-
Because I’m easy come,easy go,
A little high,little low,
Anyway the wind blows,doesn’t really matter to me,
To me

Mama,just killed a man,
Put a gun against his head,
Pulled my trigger,now he’s dead,
Mama,life had just begun,
But now I’ve gone and thrown it all away-
Mama ooo,
Didn’t mean to make you cry-
If I’m not back again this time tomorrow-
Carry on,carry on,as if nothing really matters-

Too late,my time has come,
Sends shivers down my spine-
Body’s aching all the time,
Goodbye everybody-I’ve got to go-
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth-
Mama ooo- (any way the wind blows)
I don’t want to die,
I sometimes wish I’d never been born at all-

I see a little silhouetto of a man,
Scaramouche,scaramouche will you do the fandango-
Thunderbolt and lightning-very very frightening me-
Galileo,galileo,
Galileo galileo
Galileo figaro-magnifico-
But I’m just a poor boy and nobody loves me-
He’s just a poor boy from a poor family-
Spare him his life from this monstrosity-
Easy come easy go-,will you let me go-
Bismillah! no-,we will not let you go-let him go-
Bismillah! we will not let you go-let him go
Bismillah! we will not let you go-let me go
Will not let you go-let me go
Will not let you go let me go
No,no,no,no,no,no,no-
Mama mia,mama mia,mama mia let me go-
Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me,for me,for me-

So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye-
So you think you can love me and leave me to die-
Oh baby-can’t do this to me baby-
Just gotta get out-just gotta get right outta here-

Nothing really matters,
Anyone can see,
Nothing really matters-,nothing really matters to me,

Any way the wind blows....

--

Keane - Somewhere Only We Know

I walked across an empty land,
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand.
I felt the earth beneath my feet,
Sat by the river and it made me complete.
Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.

I came across a fallen tree,
I felt the branches of it looking at me.
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.

So if you have a minute why don't we go,
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know.

Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on.
So tell me when you gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin.
So if you have a minute why don't we go,
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, so why don't we go,

This could be the end of everything.
So why don't we go, somewhere only we know,
Somewhere only we know?
Somewhere only we know.

do u give a shit??

..

I dreamt of a homicide last night. Its so gory and disturbing. I woke up in cold sweats. The strangest part of it all is that i seem to recognise that scene from somewhere, perhaps a book or movie, but just cant put my finger pointed at any.

I think homicides and carnage are the most frightful death. Unlike terminal illness or suicide, at least you have a grasp of what seems to be happening next. But the former can happen anytime, You may be spending a lovely afternoon doing something that you clearly enjoy and swoosh..you are abducted, blasted, tortured, skinned , beheaded etc..its a disturbing thought. I guess that is why many foreigners chose S'pore as their homeland rather than their native land.

My legs are still aching after spinning and swiming with fins yesterday.

bleah

Spoke to one of my client today. Over dinner. We were talking about her kids. She was telling me how much she fail to understand them these days. The books they are reading. The reality shows that they are glued to etc.. She cant see in parallel.

I told her candidly, that she spent more time in her office than spent time understanding them. The three of her precious . The rest of the sundays spent with her kids , were used to reinforce what she deems best for them.

I think it has been a major issue with Asian parents these days. Spending immaterial time with their kids , that they claim to love, but yet to try to understand. To force them to swallow what they think is right for them but not what their kids are actually good at. To provide luxurious holidays for them , yet not know that travelling is the least on their kids' mind.

Am i inferring on myself? Perhaps if i generalise this trend, i do belong to this genre when i was young.

Anyway, a quo to end the day.

"当爱以成往事
心中那还残存的
一丝丝回忆
都渐渐淡漠

当爱以成往事
脑海里曾留下的
片片柔情
也都在老去

当爱以成往事
我们所认识的
或是已忘却的
将在次成为一个起点"

--

You and I by Buble

Here we are
On earth together
It's you and I
God has made us fall in love
It's true
I've really found
Someone like you
Will it stay
The love you feel for me
Will you say
That you will be by my side
To see me through
Until my life is through
Well in my mind
We can conquer the world
In love you and I
You and I, you and I...
I'm glad
At least in my life
I've found someone
That may not be here forever
To see me through
But I found strength in you
Cause in my mind
You will stay here always
In love you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I
In my mind
We can conquer the world
In love you and I
You and I, you and I
You and I...

--

gonna up my gym regimen, throwing in night swims- to adjust to the open water condition and the last freshwater held at night. Gonna up my spinning class. Need more leg power :-)

Now to rush to work first :-)

cleared

Feel accomplished today.

I have a day off today. Bascially cause i am taking my advanced theory PADI open water diver theory exam today. In fact. the last installment. I have been cramming for the theory tests since last week. There are 3 theory tests and four practical tests - 2 freshwater , 2 open water.

Today is the final one . The toughest as we are supposed to know how to calculate how to calculate our pressure group, our residual nitrogen time, total bottom time,sea navigation etc..

Smug me studied a bit this morning, Thot it was too easy for maths genius me but turn out that i under estimate the paper. I was the last to leave the class. :-(

Fortunately, i scored 82%..heh. I pleaded with Alex , my super cute instructor, to mark for me first.

I am left with 1 more fresh water practical test, and i will be going Msia for the next weekend for my open water diving test, [ if of course if i clear next tue test]

Very soon. I , hopefully, will be a certified open water diver. Equates going diving on my own :-) Will squeeze in a birthday diving trip next march.


****

Went to watch Harry Potter movie this afternoon, It was exciting actually. But of course, if comparable to the book, it's non comparable. Globet of Fire was widely claimed, including myself, to be the best of Rowling's work. You can never compare the virtual imagination versus CG graphics. To me, reading a novel is always better than a movie. Cause a movie is diected thru the imagination of the director's. Not ours.

But, in a nutshell, it was enjoyable :-)

what a night

i had a beautiful dream last night. Surreal.
heh..just a dream ..haha..really..just a dream

二等天使

Thank you Dorothy. Appreciate your concern :-) [ My current fave cantonese singer]



二等天使

歌手：劉浩龍 | 作曲：側田@On Your Mark
填詞：林夕 | 編曲：Ted Lo

神聖那種容貌就似你
觀眾看著亦會覺得很好奇
神如何明白造你　就似天使這麼美
沒法比　沒法比　無限美

＊而你缺點　就是極可惜跟我在拍拖
　淪落地折翼跌落世間不能像最初
　而你最好　在蜜運之中未宜提及我
　人前避免在印象扣掉那麼多

　無法避免　令你沾上了污點
　共你相愛惹不起艷羨　只惹閒言
　令你這完美天使污染
　而振翅非不到你的天
　累你失去了冠冕
　但你卻待我一點也不變＊

REPEAT＊

我亦陪著你這些年　仍然難敵我心虛
怎麼算　令你沾上了污點
共你相愛惹不起艷羨　只惹閒言
令你這完美天使污染
而振翅非不到你的天
累你失去了冠冕
但你卻待我一點也不變

--

Answer - Sarah Mclachlan

I will be the answer
At the end of the line
I will be there for you
While you take the time
In the burning of uncertainty
I will be your solid ground
I will hold the balance
If you can't look down

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all gone out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind
Take me to a
Place so holy
That I can wash this from my mind
The memory of choosing not to fight

If it takes my whole life
I won't break, I won't bend
It will all be worth it
Worth it in the end
'Cause I can only tell you what I know
That I need you in my life
When the stars have all burned out
You'll still be burning so bright

Cast me gently
Into morning
For the night has been unkind

--

First of May - Sarah Brightman version


When I was small, and christmas trees were tall,
We used to love while others used to play.
Don’t ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Some one else moved in from far away.

(chorus)
Now we are tall, and christmas trees are small,
And you don’t ask the time of day.
But you and i, our love will never die,
But guess we’ll cry come first of may.

The apple tree that grew for you and me,
I watched the apples falling one by one.
And I recall the moment of them all,
The day I kissed your cheek and you were mine.

(chorus...)

When I was small, and christmas trees were tall,
Do do do do do do do do do...
Don’t ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Some one else moved in from far away.

..

cant get to sleep. think i slept too early at 10pm.

Out buying cds

1. His new cantonese album:



2. Aaron Kwok 2004 Dec concert dvd
3. Film - The Piano

The Girl From Ipanema

The Girl From Ipanema

Stan Getz and Astrud Gilberto

(Writer(s): Jobim/Gimbel/DeMoraes)

Tall and tan and young and lovely
The girl from Ipanema goes walking
And when she passes, each one she passes goes - ah

When she walks, she's like a samba
That swings so cool and sways so gentle
That when she passes, each one she passes goes - ooh

(Ooh) But I watch her so sadly
How can I tell her I love her
Yes I would give my heart gladly
But each day, when she walks to the sea
She looks straight ahead, not at me

Tall, (and) tan, (and) young, (and) lovely
The girl from Ipanema goes walking
And when she passes, I smile - but she doesn't see (doesn't see)
(She just doesn't see, she never sees me,...)

--

唯獨你是不可取替

曾聽說有許多戀愛
沒有結果卻剩傷心者感慨
令我都刻意避開
是我不敢相信真愛
但你不惜真心真意對待
竟令我再感到意外
讓我獻出同樣被愛全面喝采

＊如果今天將失去眼前的一切
剩低清風兩袖也不計
唯獨你一個是不可給取替
是我生命裡的一切　哦

＋如早知今生跟你有幸可相愛
在當初應更努力為未來
其實我知道是可一不可再
下半生准我留住你一直相愛

誰似你這般欣賞我
誰也說不上你一半清楚我
問我可需要什麼
願你終生交托給我
讓我一生好好把你照料
請讓我體恤你需要
為你獻出全部熱愛從來沒缺少

重唱　＊,＋

其實我知道是可一不可再
下半生准我留住你一直相愛

--

Both Sides Now , Joni Mitchell

Bows and flows of angel hair and ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere, i've looked at cloud that way.
But now they only block the sun, they rain and snow on everyone.
So many things i would have done but clouds got in my way.

I've looked at clouds from both sides now,
From up and down, and still somehow
It's cloud illusions i recall.
I really don't know clouds at all.

Moons and junes and ferris wheels, the dizzy dancing way you feel
As every fairy tale comes real; i've looked at love that way.
But now it's just another show. you leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know, don't give yourself away.

I've looked at love from both sides now,
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions i recall.
I really don't know love at all.

Tears and fears and feeling proud to say "i love you" right out loud,
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds, i've looked at life that way.
But now old friends are acting strange, they shake their heads, they say
I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day.

I've looked at life from both sides now,
From win and lose, and still somehow
It's life's illusions i recall.
I really don't know life at all.

feelin bad

I feel so bad. I just told someone off just now, without my thought, simply berating venom to him..
To be exact, this neighbour of mine , who lives in the opposite block. My reservist mate.

He happens to be JUST married with a few months old. Apparently, he has been asking me out whenever his wife is out of town . Sometimes , think he will go overboard like cooking dinner and buying food for me. Initially, i tried to be oblivious to him. He really is a nice chap..but think he got out of hand these days..he just hit the wrong chord just now, when he called me over for a drink.

Here goes :

Me : What's up? Where's your wife?
Him : She is out wif frens. Wanna come out for dinner? I cooked extra.
Me : Why did you cook when ur wife is out eating?
Him : You mentioned this is your lieu period, so thot you will be free for dinner?
Me : But i hust ate dinner wif my fren. Next time ok?
Him: Your gf huh?
Me: No. Fren.
Him: No bluff lah..
Me: [fuming] G, are you gay?
Him : No
Me: Then you are a bi?
Him : [after a while] Hmm..i think so..
Me : what the fark are you bloody married then? You just have a baby girl!!! Havent you give it a thought? Do you wanna screw your bloody life just because you are bloody bisexual! You have a great job, Great wife. Family! Dun screw it up!
Him : i am just curious..
Me : Then stop being curious..it will do you no good! Trust me G! I meant you no harm!
Him: I have to put down the phone..

Before i can say another word, the line went dead. His voice sounded hoarse at the end.

Instantly, i felt i shouldnt be so harsh. Who on earth am i to judge what's right or worng for him? I cant even handle mine!

Henceforth , i text him apologizing for my harsh tone, reiterating my good intentions. He did not reply.

Think i just lost a fren here. Sigh..Impulsive me..

Unbelievable

I got back my Business Mandarin course results - B+

Wow..amazing..that 商业计划　i did scored an A ! Good gracious..whenever did my mandarin been so top notch..haha

i am alright ..taking baby steps

I am alright. Apparently, after the last blog entry i received a call and email, asking for my well state. Not super alright. Just taking baby steps to make myself lead a relatively less stressful life. That blog entry was just rumneration of whatever flashed thru my mind. Thats my main worry at blogging these days. My loved ones getting worried about me.


I decided on taking the train ,afterc hanging and dropping my car back, to combat class at Raffles at 7.40pm. It's been quite a while since my last combat. Since Babe left and i became waking up earlier for work, it just got pushed down my priority list.

Like what i said, work will be less stressful for the next two weeks, as it was as a planned leave lieu period. Hence, I have decided to leave zippy car at home and going public for the next two weeks.

Reading on the train, whilst listening to my iVideo. Its great idea. Anyway, the previous song [previous post] by Mayday was discovered when my iVideo shuffled till it. I love the lyrics. Poignant as usual. I love glancing thru my photo albums whenever i am feeling down Those captured the most beautiful moments of my life. This is one pic i love : share it with all you folks.



This is taken Chinese New Year.From Left is my elder bro, my mother and myself. I look so happy at that point of time. I was feeling so blessed. My mum was there. Babe is with me .Dessie was back in my life. And J, he makes it all complete . Though work was a its lowest during the starting of the year, my happiness is dire shown on my face. That is why wherever you see me smiling to myself in the gym or fidgeting with my iVideo , you know those are all happy memories :-)

I hate driving. I become a nerve wreck when the traffic gets bad. Being that super rich brat, i was at that time, I just became this hellraider overnight in my mum's car and ocassionally my bro car. I hit a boy when i was 19. I can still rememberall the blood, My super blank face. When sent to the hospital, his mum cried like there is no tomorrow. I was oblivious to it. I was blank out, standing at the door, wearing bloodstain army uniform. That blank lingered for days.

Henceforth, the only reason i got a car now is solely for work. I need to zip from one place to another for meetings or presentation etc..But after trauma, i becaome a much more slower and safer driver. I get scared to even cut lanes , esp at night.

my little experience .

溫柔

溫柔

作詞:阿信 作曲:阿信

走在風中 今天陽光 突然好溫柔
天的溫柔 地的溫柔 像你抱著我
然後發現 你的改變 孤單的今後
如果冷 該怎麼渡過
天邊風光 身邊的我 都不在你眼中
你的眼中 藏著什麼 我從來都不懂
沒有關係 你的世界 就讓你擁有
不打擾 是我的溫柔
不知道 不明瞭 不想要 為什麼 我的心
明明是想靠近 卻孤單到黎明
不知道 不明瞭 不想要 為什麼 我的心
那愛情的綺麗 總是在孤單裡 再把我的最好的愛給你
不知不覺 不情不願 又到巷子口
我沒有哭　也沒有笑　因為這是夢
沒有預兆 沒有理由 你真的都說過
如果有 就讓你自由
這是我的溫柔
　

Moving On

I finished work for the day already. In fact, I will finish work relatively earlier for , at least the next two weeks. I have finished all my major projects on hand. The joint venture needs monitoring, but logistically, i have more or less have it settled. Now to ensure the smooth facilitation of the courses commencing next week.

*****

Moving on. I believed all mortons bury ourselves in our work. Scurrying from one dateline to another gym session. Just to avoid that seam of time to allow loneliness to permeate. I have to admit i am no exception. To be exact, i am a veteran to this sort of behavior.

Nonetheless, this is no remedy to our open wounds. It just gets bigger , atrophied. Till the day where no stich can be strong enough, it snaps.

At the end of the day, we hurt ourselves. We hurt people around us.

This is the irony of it all - We strive to keep everything under wrapped, to protect our loved ones. Not knowing that the our motive is their worry.

It takes people a lot of strength to move on. To accept the existence of the hurdle , is one feat.

I hate moving on. It includes changes, adjustment , new people etc. I find the whole saga exhausting.

But on the flip side , it may be a wholesome experience awaiting us.

" Thy shall not tempt misery." - Hamlet
Misery has her ways for you to be smitten.

Sometimes, i question myself if i have been too used to misery, to late work hours, insomnia .That even if something good comes along, i wouldnt have believed that it was meant for me. That it must be too good to be true. I wonder how many of us , feel exactly like i do : To embrace darkness, finding solace in it.

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Its time for me to take a slow stroll this month, recuperating my self, emotionally and physically. Hopefully, i will be back with happier blog posts.

Oh yes..i love this cd. Still.

Cheers to my life

I feel damn lousy today. For so many pointless reasons. I should be on Qantas to Australia now. Yet i am still here blogging away. Work never seems to end. . Money gone.No Sydney Opera House. No cute Aussies in my life .The list rants on.

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Here's to life:

Change - the only radical constant in our life.

No absolute good.
No absolute bad.
No absolute promise.
No premeditated intent .
No rightful pursue.
No wrongful mistake.

Time.
The timeless god.
The healer.
The dictator.
The lover.
The wrecker.

Love.
That beauty.
That narcisstic.
That lust.
That cruelty.
That angst.
That self-piteous.
That habitual.
That tragic.



Nitez world

Tried

Tried my very best .
Scurrying out from my nutshell.
Peering thru the other pier
The unchartered isle.

Think i acted silly.
But i tried my very best.


Nitez world.

Cool article

Read Sunday times. They run an article of Singapore record breaking gal - Annabel Chong. Needless for me to elaborate more of her act.

In a nutsell. I love the article for its pun intended. - Doing the unthinkable,plunging into the unforseen realm.

This idea - Too easy to love, yet too diffcult to execute.

Great food!

Went out with Kian for dinner and movie, Just Like Heaven. I am totally bowled by meticulous service , great ambience and authentic japanese cusine there. We ordered superb hot sake to go with it. It was really good. I am definitely bring babe and dessie there when they are back.

iQuo from Kian

"Careful of your thoughts, cause they will be your actions.
Careful your actions, cause they will be your habits.
Careful your habit, cause they will be your character.
Careful your character, cause they will be your destiny."

*Profound huh..i was pondering over this whilst doing my gyming today.

Chris Binchy - The much-hyped chef turn author

Starting on a new book :-)

it was that close..

Read about Ono Lisa concet review today. She sang my all-time fave "Moon River". In fact , i love her version. It is of a totally different taste to which how Sinatra did it.

I actually did ask someone to watch with me. But he was busy. I didnt want to hear that song , with anyone else. Henceforth, i decided to give her concert a miss. I simply have a hunch she is gonna sing it , alongside a piano recital.

Glad i didnt make it, cause my predicament is spot-on.

Love this book

I finished My sister's keeper , from Jodi Picoult, when i was in BKK. I finally started on a new one today, a thai author ,educated in Chicago, writes about his homeland. Its hilarious starting para, with his first chapter titled "farangs". It means whites in thai.

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"June : The Germans come to the island- speaking like spitting. July:the Italians, the French, the British, the Americans. The Italians like pad thai, its affinity with spagetti. They like light fabrics, sunglasses, leather sandals.The French likes plump girls, rambutans, baring their breasts. The british are here to work on their pasty complexions, their penchant for hashish. Americans are the fattest, the stingiest of the bunch. They may pretend to like pad thai , but twice a week they need their culinary comforts, their hamburgers and their pizzas. They are also the worst drunks. "

Excerpt from Sightseeing, Rattawut Lapcharoensap

My new fave song - 第一天

第一天

歌手：孫燕姿 | 作曲：First Day
填詞：阿信 | 編曲：First Day/Terence Teo

下過雨的　夏天傍晚　我都會期待
唱歌的蟬　嘿　把星星都吵醒
月光曬了很涼快

就是這樣　回憶起來　第一次告白
尷尬的我　看　愛裝得很哲學的你
其實很可愛

你說活在明天　活在期待
不如活得今天很自在
我說我懂了　會不會太快
未來　第一天要展開

第一天　我存在　第一次呼吸暢快
站在地上的腳踝　因為你而有真實感
第一天　我存在　第一次能飛起來
愛是騰空的魔幻
第一天的純真色彩它總是
永遠　那麼　燦爛＊

你很搞笑　你很奇怪　你頭髮很亂
有的時候　你　又突然為我的事情
變得很勇敢

這麼說來　很不單純　你陪我看海
海那麼藍　我　又好像不應該
把你想得有點壞

壞的是我　發現不知不覺
不見到你不是很習慣
你的眼神裡　好像也期待
期待　不一樣的未來

Last installment of BKK trip

Am supposed to blog on my BKK trip on Spa. But had been caught in the storm after the lull, at work.



1st Day - Green Leaf Spa

Its the residence spa at Oakwood. We were given complimentary spa treats - One swedish massage + Facial Aroma Massage. The swedish massage was typical but the face masseur is excellent.

2nd Day - Healthland

This is one of the most sought after spa, currently, by both hongkongers and thais alike. It has to be booked at least two days in advance. I did a Herbal ball massage. The massage involves herbs wrapped in a cloth. Using that, the masseur massages your acupuncture points. All of us slept really well that night. However, it was slightly painful at some body points.

3rd Day - Thann Sanctuary

This is my fave amongst the three. Its at the top floor of Discovery Centre at Siam. I give it thumbs up for its service, products , setting and masseurs etc. I actually bought quite a bit of bath products from there after that spa day.

I did
1. Moisturing face Treatment
2. Ayurvedic Head massage - my fave
3. Abhyanga body massage

Missing

Tonight is Ono Lisa Concert ... :-(

Night Out

Just got back from the clubs. Eddie sure knows a lot of ppl . i was like hello here and smile there all the time. So exhausting. Honestly, i feel really gauche to be surrounded by overwhelming number of queers.

But eddie says that i am getting too serious and uptight these days. That i should act more my age before my prime years are over. So i decided to make a trip down.Everyone ard looks so unfamiliar.

Anyway, i enjoy his company . Sometimes , i feel he act more my age than i do..heh. Think i should really loosen up a bit.

Hope i wouldnt be too grougy for tomorrow meeting at noon.

Tradition versus Contemporary

Finished work and decided to catch Saving Face at 9pm. I have always like Joan Chen . Glad she did not disappoint me , and all her cult fans, in her current work.

Its a tradition vs contemporay, with streaks of queer theme thrown in. Not too heavy. Palpable for a holiday treat movie.