Moving On

I finished work for the day already. In fact, I will finish work relatively earlier for , at least the next two weeks. I have finished all my major projects on hand. The joint venture needs monitoring, but logistically, i have more or less have it settled. Now to ensure the smooth facilitation of the courses commencing next week.

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Moving on. I believed all mortons bury ourselves in our work. Scurrying from one dateline to another gym session. Just to avoid that seam of time to allow loneliness to permeate. I have to admit i am no exception. To be exact, i am a veteran to this sort of behavior.

Nonetheless, this is no remedy to our open wounds. It just gets bigger , atrophied. Till the day where no stich can be strong enough, it snaps.

At the end of the day, we hurt ourselves. We hurt people around us.

This is the irony of it all - We strive to keep everything under wrapped, to protect our loved ones. Not knowing that the our motive is their worry.

It takes people a lot of strength to move on. To accept the existence of the hurdle , is one feat.

I hate moving on. It includes changes, adjustment , new people etc. I find the whole saga exhausting.

But on the flip side , it may be a wholesome experience awaiting us.

" Thy shall not tempt misery." - Hamlet
Misery has her ways for you to be smitten.

Sometimes, i question myself if i have been too used to misery, to late work hours, insomnia .That even if something good comes along, i wouldnt have believed that it was meant for me. That it must be too good to be true. I wonder how many of us , feel exactly like i do : To embrace darkness, finding solace in it.

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Its time for me to take a slow stroll this month, recuperating my self, emotionally and physically. Hopefully, i will be back with happier blog posts.

Oh yes..i love this cd. Still.