The Song.

I have been mesmerized by Laura Fygi 's version of How am I supposed to live without you. Its playing in my car stereo deck for a month. And everytime that track is played, Kian and I will be awed. Its sung with such poignant melodramatism.

Tarot II

THE CHARIOT

VICTORY
WILL
SELF-ASSERTION
HARD CONTROL


ACTIONS

achieving victory
reaching your goal
winning
being successful
dominating
coming out on top
beating the competition
using your will
being determined to succeed
focusing your intent
rising above temptation
letting nothing distract you
sustaining an effort
concentrating your energies
fixing on a goal
asserting yourself
being ego-focused
establishing an identify
knowing who you are
feeling self-confident
having faith in yourself
looking out for your interests
achieving hard control
mastering emotions
curbing impulses
maintaining discipline
holding in anger
getting your way
assuming the reins of power
showing authority

OPPOSING CARDS: Some Possibilities

Strength - soft control
Hanged Man - accepting God's will, putting others first
Tower - defeat, humbling experience
Eight of Swords - confusion, self-doubt
Ten of Swords - powerless, in the pits, putting others first

REINFORCING CARDS: Some Possibilities

Magician - using your will, concentrating
Two of Wands - being in authority, dominating
Six of Wands - triumph, self-confidence
Four of Pentacles - control
Nine of Pentacles - self-control, discipline

DESCRIPTION

Picture Julius Caesar riding his chariot triumphantly into Rome. He has defeated his enemies and conquered vast, new lands. This is the spirit of the Chariot. Card 7 represents the victories that are possible through willpower and self-mastery. A military image is appropriate for the Chariot because this card stands for the strengths associated with combat - discipline, grit, determination and assertiveness.

The Chariot represents the positive aspects of the ego. A healthy ego is one that is strong and self-assured. It knows what it wants and how to get it. We can get annoyed at someone whose ego is too healthy, but we often turn to that person to lead us through difficult moments. We know he or she won't be wishy-washy.

In readings, the Chariot often appears when hard control is or could be in evidence. At its best, hard control is not brutal, but firm and direct. It is backed up by a strong will and great confidence. The Chariot can mean self-control or control of the environment. This card also represents victory. There are many types of wins; the Chariot's is of the win-lose type. Your success comes from beating the competition to become number one. Such moments are glorious in the right circumstances.

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Read more about The Fool's Journey

The Fool's Journey is a metaphor for the journey through life. Each major arcana card stands for a stage on that journey - an experience that a person must incorporate to realize his wholeness. These 22 descriptions are based on the keywords for each major arcana card. The keywords are highlighted in the text. A card's number is in parentheses.

Blah..

Its gross! My two chipped nails with blood clot in it. Ewww..I was doing combat on saturaday and my toe nail oozes blood. Think i have to delay tomorrow marathon training till wednesday or thursday. I 'd better book a pedicure with Min tomorrow.

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Was browsing thru the papers when this article caught my attention.

".....A vision for Marina Bay...to immerse visitors in the panorama of Indo-Pacific diversity....Other interesting elements include a 20-storey vertical zoo and aviary, an Omnimax cinema, an aquarium displaying Indo-Pacific river ecologies, a festival tent, a heritage museum, a pedestrian suspension bridge..."

Wow..that is one zoo and aviary that i will definitely visit.

My Sunday

This morning , as i was preparing for work, I almost screamed to see a ghastly ugly image- me.I looked so tired. The sluggish feel hung visibly on my dull pasty face. Nevertheless, i still have to work. But i managed to cancel one work appointment , thus ending work at 3pm.

Went to the gym. After which, met dessie and kian for dinner and movie : Bewitched. The above snapshot was taken when both of them were busy ordering food. That split second of adrendaline to capture down the contentment i felt. I am glad my two buddies are with me. Its indescribable. That moment. The small talks and simply letting our hair down. Just at that split second, i was also wondering how nice and complete it would be to do a triple date dinner together, furnished with good wine. However as quickly as the fleeting thought came, i brushed it off as fast.

Anyway, i enjoyed my Sunday. :-)

Zahir

I pondered over this extract for a while. Like the metaphysical manner of simulating my thoughts. Share with all you folks.

"Just suppose Hitler had won the war, wiped out all the Jews and convinced his people that there really was such a thing as a master race. The history books start to be changed, and a hundred years later, his successors managed to wipe out all the indians. 300 years later, the Blacks had been eliminated too. It takes 500 years, but, finally, the all-powerful war machine succeeds in erasing the oriental race from the face of the earth as well. The history books speak of remote battles waged against barbarians, but no one reads too closely, because it's of no importance. 2000 years after the birth of Nazism, in a bar in Tokyo, a city that has been inhabited for five centuries now by blue eyed people, Hans and Fritz are enjoying a beer. At one point, Hans looks at Fritz and asks:" Fritz, do you think it was always like this? "

Extracted from Zahir, Paulo Coelho

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A new colonel was posted into my camp, in place of my NS officer's posting out. Think not too highly of him. One of his new implentation speaks for himself:

"Last week, I was sitting on my throne, in my camp, doing my huge business. There was a slogan ( his claimed-self written quote) pasted at the back of the toilet cubicle door," Shallow man believe in luck. Strong man believe in cause and effect."

I wanted to write an email telling him, " Successful man believes in both!". Arghh.. What a daff cliche and silly idea of putting it at the place when ppl are shitting.


i look shagged in this pic. Working 16 hrs / 7days. Nevertheless, this matronly officer makes me grin so widely.

My name

Kenneth

Royal oath : English
Handsome one : Irish


You have great self-confidence and a charming personality which attracts many friends and admirers. Your innate sense of personal power and ability to lead are ideally suited to positions of authority. Being so versatile and seeing the big picture your ambitions are high and much is usually expected of you. With patience and tenacity you will certainly fulfill the great potential you have for success.

Click here to find out about your name.

ICT'05 16th ~ 26th 2005

I have to heave another sigh of relief - TG its over and done with. At least for this year.

It has been waking up early, cramming with the morning ECP jams, rushing thru projected KIP to be met, and, along with my officers, train for the upcoming Army Half marathon. Of all mentioned, only the last agenda was what i volunteered and look forward to every Monday, wed and friday. My no-socks habit garnered three blisters and two chipped toe nails. [there goes my pedicure..]Arghh..i finally heed Dessie advice this week and forced myself into wearing socks before training.

Two sad news this ICT. Both my CO and manpower officer are posted out. Hence I will not have the opportunity to work with them the next ICT.

Good news : Amid my ICT, it has been finalised that servicemen need to clock only 7 high keys and 3 low keys, accuring ten NS cycle, to R.O.D.

In a nutshell, my ICT was enriching. Working with my two mentors are always fufilling. Will talk on next blog on what i have understood and learnt from them.

I reckon its the work that i still have to do , after my ICT daily that tires me no end. It zaps me up completely. Think the next two weeks will be spent backlogging the piles of yet unfinished work. Sigh..

Quidam!

Quidam in S'pore
Originally uploaded by Himbolicious.

Managed to get the ticket for Quidam yesterday during lunch. Its a catch! I got the VIP $250 seat for $120! Looking forward to 10Sept 5pm!

Oh ya..Last day of ICT! Phew..end of being stuck in morning ERP rush.

S'pore Drivers

When wanting to cut into the lane , in order to filter left, drivers tend to accelerate rather than brake to seep you in.

Kind souls in Singapore island

Zippy car went flat on me just now. Cant start the car after pumping petrol at the kisok. I did not have my mobile with me. I was 9/10 dead. Morning Army. Afternoon 9km marathon training. Nite time work. I could hardly walk. Limping. 2 kind souls came to help me push my car. One sent me back. Kisok ppl allow me to park till next day. Army understand my plight. Extend their understanding to booking in late tomorrow.

Wow..so many kind souls in a single night. Simply have to blog to share how warm this feeling is.

I am 9.5/10 dead. Nite folks.

Tarot

I am The Chariot The Chariot often appears when hard control is or could be in evidence. At its best, hard control is not brutal, but firm and direct. It is backed up by a strong will and great confidence. The Chariot can mean self-control or control of the environment. This card also represents victory. There are many types of wins; the Chariot's is of the win-lose type. Your success comes from beating the competition to become number one. Such moments are glorious in the right circumstances. For a full description of your card and other goodies, please visit LearnTarot.com

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hiatus till 26th Aug

Will blog again on 26th Aug.

In camp training + Work + AHM training + down with bouts of flu = sleep and work when there is time

Till then folks.

God i woke up so early!

The regiment begins...

Is this nice?

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I am all vexed up over work today. I think the coming two weeks will be ,lunches, dinners and other free time, spent working, whilst the rest of the time will be in camp. Perhaps there may be something behind the pent up frustration in mine today at work? Blah..bad hair days go away!

Movie Indulgence

Despite rushing thru work before my ICT on tuesday, i found time to cram in watching two movies this weekend.It has been a movie fiesta lately, having numerous movies that caught my fancy, I just have to watch it on wide DTS movie screen. Both was excellent.

Charlie and the chocolate factory was simply lovely. I have always been a crazy fan of Tim Burton. Think he has a knack in directing bizarre fantasy fable with a pinch of morale pun. I love the soundtrack esp the theme song with lyrics that was written by the late Roald Dahl himself, in the book. Check it out in the website!Its really cutesy , with a karaoke sing-along version.

Napola is a German film set in the era of Hitler reign. The tragic friendship between a fervent handsome boxer and an intellectual sensitive officer's son was heartbreaking. I cringed when i saw the rigid dogma that entails the elite training they have to undertake. More than ever, its propanganda that bits deep into all the young German cadets making them filled with surrealism. Its frightening to see how this terrible word poisons the world.

Darn!!!

Set my alarm wrongly! I accidentally switched the 8am to 8pm! Missed a morning work meeting. Cooked up a ultra lame excuse...feeling so guilty. But i had a well rested sleep..heh

Pensare to Ponder

Have not been actively penning down thoughts for the past week. Rather, i have been picture blogging ,narrating my daily activities thru visuals.

Well..in a pensive mood tonight, so i will write a little.


I am most satisfied with myself , having captured this [above] moment of joy. From Left : Dessie , Kian and Cheryl. Despite the stark contrast in all of them, these folks have been iconic in my belittling life. Many a moments , I found no grammar that could relate more than a tinge to what i am feeling. But , i am sure these folks have been sticking around long enough to know how I felt.

Babe text me this [below] during one of the darkest moment this year , want to share with all of you :

..I don't believe in changing people, especially people i love. Juz want the best for you in a way you are most comfy in..

It hit a chord in me. We are no Apollo the God. We dun change people. We dun even need to understand ppl. We simply accept ppl. Thats the greatest form of love. And this may seems the most uphill task to everyone, including myself.

Most of the times, we, or rather myself, dun practise what we preached. Does that undermine our values and our beliefs? Or are we just as flawed like those we preached to?

Cute Marco + Karaoke

Marco loves Singapore delights!


Marco loves Ya Kun Kaya toast too!


Panoramic View of S'pore I


Panoramic View of S'pore II


Specky Black Me Singing!

破晓

“放手那刹间，才明白爱的反面不是恨。”
Quote from a friend

Yet another indulgence.....

National Day Dinner

My three dearest friends in the world : Dessie , Kian and Cheryl

Just got back

from picking dessie gal. :-) We went for sinful mee-poh supper outside his house. I am now feeling exhausted, after starting work at 8am, followed by gym and house clean up and cooking. Gonna turn in soon. But as promised , to publish the menu :

Here goes : Potentially High Protein Dinner : Exercise triple hard before attending.

Wine Selection : Wolfblass Unwooded White wine

Soup of the Day : Lobster Bistro

Appetizer : Egg white pudding with shrimp

Main Course : Dory Fish with olive cheese sauce topped in mushroom luxe sauce, Baked potato with tuna-yolk fillings

Desert : Still on trial : Up for further trials [sigh..sorry folks]

Pre-clubbing cocktail teaser : White Russian

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Other than the desert, I am rather satisfied with myself with all the trial cooking session all the rest of the menu. Hopefully,i can cajoled my prefect camomile jelly by tomorrow , after my half day work :-)

Hope those that attend loves it!

Just Finished..

preparing for tomorrow's night food with Kian and Dac. They were of great help ![ Thanks sweeties! ]

Folks, i am so excited! Going to pick Dessie gal from the airport just abt after writing this entry :-)

Sleepless.

Went to watch the premiere of The maid today. Sweet Dylan got three tickets for me. Its ..hmm..local delight. Mousy me is freaked out as usual , by horror flicks, though i was perpetually shutting my eyes and covering my ears. Kian and dac are not the bit bemused though.

For everyone info , the jelly was a flop again. I am going supermarket shopping tomorrow, seeing what other desert i can whip up. Sigh..Hopefully, its gonna be in time for monday's desert menu.

I have been feeling light-hearted for the past week or two. Its great. Been in a somewhat carefree mood, other than incompetent ppl at work trying very hard to discord , i have been feeling cheery and all sunny.

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I was having breakfast with a fren this morning. He brought up his angst of being the other half of a cash-rich older man. Its diffcult for him to brush off the stigma of being labelled awful names, esp by 'friends' of his partner. This bright young chap friend of mine was frustrated with all these groundless accusation that goes around.

My viewpoint - Inevitably, this posed as a hurdle for their budding romance to overcome together. Needless to say, there will always be big-time losers around to fill up the gossip colummns, but the utmost important should be what most matters to us - the viewpoint of our fiercely-guarded handful of inner circle of loved ones. Thats what should be minded. Besides, regardless age group, wealth , status etc, every couple has their own arena of daily squabbles and problems that may strengthen or ,even, jeopardise that speck of happiness. However, never lose faith.

Thats what i succumb to learn. Once faith is gone, love can not be ordered. It happens , at least to me. If i do not have faith in myself that i can do it, I simply scurry away.

Jumping to another issue :

I have always mantained my laidback composure in giving advices.

This quote was from a book that i read some time back. I thought it deems appropiate for two of my dear friends that have unresolved hurdles to overcome.

" There is a secret pride in every human heart that revolts tyranny. You may order and drive an individual. But you cannot change how he thinks; you cannot make him respect you." William Hazlitt

Life, in my belittling philosophy, is simply what matters to you truly. Self obsessed- most may lament. However, think between the lines and look beneath this simple equation , i am sure you [ both ] can find an answer, the resolve to break away from unnecssary agony.

Ahhhhhhh!

The farkin jelly just doesnt solidify!!! Its driving me bonkers!!!

4th attempt

just finished my 4th attempt at making jelly. finished two cans of lychees ..aiyo..Everyone , pray this is my last attempt

Failed

3rd attempt at making camomile almond jelly : Fail ..sigh..try again tonight. Rosie is gonna be one fat cat after the ND dinner.

2nd attempt today

2nd attempt at making cheese fish and jelly : better than yesterday.

yawn..nite world!

Rosie eyeing at Kian for food!

Rosie eyeing at Kian for food!
Originally uploaded by Himbolicious.

Woke up earlier than planned. I love this pic taken when Kian came over and was loading her with all t food! She's all grown up..sigh..my little princess :-)

Late dinner again.

Just had dinner again. At this rate, hopes of attaining six pecs are getting almost non-existent. Sigh..the pathetic life of a workaholic aspiring to be a himbo. I just doesnt seem to be to fit all of it in an equation.

Anyway, I missed out gym the past two days. Partly cause of work , and partly cause i am just not in the gym rat mood. This morning , I was all ready to ooze endorphins and squeeze out all the toxics thru my sweat glands. I woke up early , all ready to whack the gym, kick and punch thru combat class. Unfortunately, an amateur instructor, which happens to be my friend, took the class instead. Alright, i am biased. Though the choreograph and music selection was mildly bland , i stay thru out to support her. It's her first cardio class so i thot i should cut her some slack and reserved my comments.

During lunch, she was all excited asking how she fared in the class. I told a tiny white lie saying she was great - Actually, i think she is! Dun think I can do better if i were her - she was pleased and confided she was all vexed out the past few days , juggling between combat training and schoolwork, plus the stress for her first combat. Anyway I hinted about the changing tracks. She sorta got the hint. :-) I was careful wif my words thru out lunch , trying not to be demeaning , berating catty remarks. The lunch was blah and blah on combat. (Can just suffocate me to premature death for an unnatural cause. )but, anyway, i was the sweet angel thru lunch. Phew..

For the next few days, i am going to be busy experimenting new cook recipes for next monday family gathering! I was chatting with Kian just now. Its a western menu, unlike the CNY oriental dinner. I hope i can mimic cheese baked dory fish and prawns. Will publish the full menu the next couple of days. It should be italiano se delighte!