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I am watching Aaron Kwok 2005 concert dvd whilst blogging away. Its sizzling hot, the concert i mean. It was the concert i wanted to watch , but coldnt get tickets for when i was there then.

A 5am nightmare waking up charters me , again, to forbidden zone.

Yes. I still miss him. God knows when i am gonna stop torturing myself. If you anyone were to read this, please believe me that i am trying my very best shot to get out of this rut , actually more so than anyone could have imagined.

i make all my days as occupied as ever. But its tormenting when night falls. Cause with him around, insomnia was never near.
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Tomorrow is my diving test. Not quite worried actually, Think i prep enough with all the squats , swims and run.

I had a fantastic meeting just now, though i started off with a bad morning.

This is the strangest part of life. Mine, the very least.

When career reaches another notch, when it seems work are in positive prospective, my personal life inversely equates to negative infinity.

In Mar, when business hits rock bottom, personal life was extremely fufilling.

How i wish there is a moment in time where a balance could be strike, if not the best of both world.