Those whom the gods would destroy they first make angry.

I read an interview , with Bill Clinton, in a magazine a long time back. This quote has always been etched in my mind since. I believe I have it in my head somewhere all the time. And it came to use again today.

I have been having a persistent high fever for the whole of the week. I was very afraid cause I have a very important paper to present today. And I have to do a lot , a lot of research and work prior to that. Perhaps its myself, but the pressure and frustration of it all was immense. I tried to live oblivious to the fact that I was running a fever. I went about doing my work etc, trying to brush the fever aside. Popping pills as and when to subdue it.

I overrated my capacity, forgot my youth is almost gone. And most of all, I undermined my health. After lunch with a pal that day, my fever shot up to a high of 38.9. I felt really giddy but pushed ahead till evening before going to the doc to get stronger antibiotics.

I was rather proud of myself, yesterday, that I pulled through and got my speech and presentation done up to my mark.

But today I was hit by a non-stop hiccup as soon as my fever subsides last night. I can never present well croaking thru the entire presentation. I think I did not do well today. But I managed to keep my composure though I was really angry with myself. Cause I remember this very quote - Those whom the gods would destroy they first make angry.

Regardless. I felt utterly, completely defeated by myself today. A battle fought in vain.
He feels completely, utterly defeated today.