What rocks my world!

I have been totally drained for the past week. Both physically and emotionally. Rushing between work and all the lunches and dinners have never been as enjoyable.

Life is such a pain at times - when you just wanna disappear ,get lost and forget abt your birthday, everyone reminds you of it . In retrospect, its kinda positive to know that i have developed many new friendships since the last birthday.

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I am just done packing. Rosie is looking pensively out at the pouring rain, while i am typing away now. I will be leaving for the airport in another half an hours time. Guess i will be spending my birthday ,onboard the flight to Male, Maldives. But i am more than happy :-)

Thinking back, Its seems like a lifetime has passed since the last birthday. I wouldnt know how to articulate this emotion i am feeling now. Its when you peer out at the window and the gray skies reminds you of grievance as much as hope.

And yes ....

5 things that rock my world now :

1. Having an intensive and effective workout at gym
2. Doing a back flip from the sun deck to the sea, swimming in the sea
3. Snuggle at one corner of my house , with Rosie near me, indulging in a good book with Ben&Jerry's Cherry Garcia ice cream!
4. Having a good talk with my loved ones
5. Simply knowing new ppl and finding out what makes them rock!

I realised i can , now describe all of these vividly:-)

It can only meant one thing : Life has indeed got better.

Ciao for now.

And yes,

Happy Birthday to Myself !

看见你背包的那双白鞋，才知道奇妙的爱是可以改变倔強的你。

始终是你教了我快乐和幸福的区别。我什么能忍。。。

倔強的我们。

You have moved on.
i have let go.
But our love never dies.
Cause dreams live on.
And even if we were to relive it in our very own way.
We have made this love the most special
With this, the dearest gift i can ever hope for.

With all the kind intent , i wish you well.

i love you. Have always.

happy birthday dar.

i miss you.

First Time Ever I Saw Your Face - Roberta Flack

The first time ever I saw your face
I thought the sun rose in your eyes
And the moon and stars were the gifts you gave
To the dark and the empty skies, my love,
To the dark and the empty skies.

The first time ever I kissed your mouth
And felt your heart beat close to mine
Like the trembling heart of a captive bird
That was there at my command, my love
That was there at my command.

And the first time ever I lay with you
I felt your heart so close to mine
And I knew our joy would fill the earth
And last till the end of time my love
It would last till the end of time my love

The first time ever I saw your face, your face,
your face, your face

The Russian Dolls

Where do i begin - Shirley Bassey

Where do I begin?
To tell the story of how great a love can be
The sweet love story that is older than the sea
The simple truth about the love he brings to me
Where do I start?

Like a summer rain
That cools the pavement with a patent leather shine
He came into my life and made the living fine
And gave a meaning to this empty world of mine
He fills my heart

He fills my heart with very special things
With angels' songs, with wild imaginings
He fills my soul with so much love
That anywhere I go, I'm never lonely
With him along, who could be lonely
I reach for his hand, it's always there

How long does it last?
Can love be measured by the hours in a day?
I have no answers now, but this much I can say
I'm going to need him till the stars all burn away
And he'll be there

He fills my heart with very special things
With angels' songs, with wild imaginings
He fills my soul with so much love
That anywhere I go, I'm never lonely
With him along, who could be lonely
I reach for his hand, it's always there

How long does it last?
Can love be measured by the hours in a day?
I have no answers now, but this much I can say
I'm going to need him till the stars all burn away
And he'll be there

One big farewell

It has been a good ten years. My worn out passport has been 'punched out' yesterday, ending his travelling days. It was as though i commited adultery as i left the immigration office with a brand new passport snugged in my pocket. My heart sunk when my old buddy couldnt serve with another good ten years. The officer said it was a new policy. I insisted that he was still a few pages short of being completely filled with entry stamps. Sentiments and policies doesnt come in pairs , I would have known.

Buddy, you are one lucky chap! Let's see where your ten years entourage have brought you:

1. Brunei - Bandar.S.Begawan
2. States - Chicago, Washington ,Las Vegas, Los Angeles, New York, Boston
3. Canada - Toronto, Montreal, Vancouver
4. Mexico
5. Indonesia - Jakarta, Bintan
6. Hawaii - Honolulu
7. U.K - London ,Paris , Rome, Scotland
8. Hongkong
9. Greece - Athens
10. Japan - Tokyo , Osaka, Kyoto, Fukuoka, Yokohama
11. Korea - Seoul, Pusan
12. China - Shenzhen, Guilin, Xinjiang, Guangzhou, Chengdu, Chengde, Qingdao
13 India - Bombay, New Delhi
14. Eqypt - Cairo
15. Turkey - Istanbul
16. Thailand - Bangkok, Phuket
17. Australia - Brisbane
18. Malaysia - Johor, KL, Kuching

V for Bloodshed

This gotta be my favorite movie , to date this year.

I simply adore controversy. Though as much as any fictious books and movies are literally defined with no coincidence with live events, quality fictions are supposed to make readers and audience feel its sorrow . To yearn for the climax. Like what being put across by V , " Artistes, and of course writers, use lies to speak of the truth."

V for Vendetta. It lives up to the name of bloodshed, with the splashing and gushing done in sardonic splendor. The verve , epic set design and , not missing , spectacular bombing scenes. All of these sums my paramour for Wachowski brothers' latest work.

More than what the cinematography can offer, the highly intensive political-charged plot sets me thinking thru the night of what the movie seemingly puts across - When we see chaos in a higher lever, it is in rhythmic order.

The last scene made a grand exit too. Citizens wearing Guy Fawkes mask were putting up a demonstration. All behind a mask, and when the bomb blasted the whole of the riverside building, they flung up their mask in unison. Was there any message that Wachowski brothers were putting across to the audience? At least to me.

I am most fazed with Natalie Portman's performance. Her acting skills are probably tested over that span of 15~20 mins in the mock detention centre.

Courage - its might on us, surpasses all physical sense.

my new fave song

Cry Me a River - Ella Fitzgerald

Now you say you're lonely
You cried the long night through
Well, you can cry me a river
Cry me a river
I cried a river over you
Now you say you're sorry
For being so untrue
Well, you can cry me a river
Cry me a river
Cause I cried, I cried
I cried a river over you
You drove me,
Nearly drove me out of my head
While you never shed a tear
Remember?
I remember all that you said
Told me love was too plebeian
Told me you were through with me and
Now you say you say love me
Well, just to prove you do
Come on and cry me a river
Cry me a river
I cried a river over you
You drove me
Nearly drove me out of my head
While you never shed a tear
Remember?
I remember all that you said
Told me love was to plebeian
Told me you were through with me...
And now, now you say you love me
Well, just to prove you do...
Come on! and cry, cry, cry me a river
Cry me a river...
Cause I cried a river over you
If my pillow could talk
Imagine what it would've said
T'would be a river of tears
I cried in bed
So you can cry me a river
Daddy, go ahead now and cry that river
Cause I cried how I cried
A river over you

Someone, today , asked me what I have learnt over the years , working and living apart from my family.

I guess its humility - the mystic in humility stretches miles , the very least. Its a virtue that requires constant reminding and perfecting. The state of being humble and grounded at all times - there is no sureness that this virtue brings you anywhere near success. However, it does make me, at least, see the beauty in everyone and everything else. And humility : is no easy feat. And i told him, i am nowhere near perfection. But the very least, i am beginning to see the magic of it.

Smell of Rain Premieres at The Picturehouse Sunday, March 26 - 12:20am (Saturday midnight screening) Monday, March 27 - 9:20pm Tuesday, March 28 - 12:00noon, 1:50pm, 3:40pm, 5:30pm Director and cast will be present to meet with movie-goers at the 3:40pm and 5:30pm shows on Tuesday, March 28th. Cathay ticketing website: http://tickets.cathay.com.sg Cathay Movie Line Tel: +65 6235 1155 Advanced bookings are available from March 18th onwards. For the latest information, log on to our official website: http://www.smellofrainmovie.com Smell of Rain , is a simple story about Xiao Qi (Nathaniel Ho), a lonely young man, trapped within his childhood grief of being abandoned just before a rainstorm. Together with a childhood best friend, Kong Long (Trey Ho), they live in a world of their own until the arrival of a girl, Li Er (Leah Low) forces Xiao Qi to confront his fears and to live by learning to love - but will it be too late? Duration: 93 minutes. Rating is TBA. The film is in Mandarin language with English subtitles. Thank you for your support, see you at The Picturehouse! -The Smell of Rain Team Spread the word!

Rosie, the princess of my house

I am in luck. My little princess lay cheekily posing as i snapped shots of her. In fact, she was posing for the camera. Heh..She can be really sweet if she wants to!

Super Sunday

It has been another long day. My weekends have been super packed these days. I kinda enjoy it. Its refreshing for a change- than staying at home with my big nose snub in a book. Not that i have lost the interest of reading, but more of finding time to do more things in the same span of time for a change. :-)

Woke up rather early at 9-ish. Went for a dip at the pool before having breakfast with Guangming - my neighbour. I think he sorta got the message. His nonsense has ceased. Its kinda nice talking to him , about shares, his boring life, his wife etc.. As long as he steer clears his mind on me, i am super cool about hanging out with him.

Called A-lun while driving to the gym. I had a good talk with him. I am glad he has been taking all in stride. Its strange how close we have become after his breakup. I dun exactly call him on a regular basis, but i guess we took trust to confide in each other whenever we talked these days. Its a nice feeling.

Pump was heavy duty today. I am all sore now :-p Went to Kino , but just couldnt find the patience to queue up to get my books. Think i will go mid week. Bought a couple of things with babe this afternoon. Would have buy even more if the ring i fancy, have my size. Oh yes..that diaper bag. heh..i think i am reallly hopeless when it comes to shopping. Absolutely no control. Out without a leash.Heh..but its okay..it runs in the blood :-)

Its weird..i have been giving very wrong vibes to ppl these days. To be specific, strangers. I got picked up by this Australian at Kino a few days back and when i was at city hall waiting for the lift, after babe has left just now, i got picked up again.

I am more bemused than anything else. Like what i told babe and shaun today, if i were to continue my life at this rate and lifestyle - I wouldnt really mind being single and just hanging loose. I kinda get adjusted to bachelor life again. Its nice to be able to feel myself again.

Talking about my weekend. Its officially over :-(

I am gonna have a rather tough week ahead.

But then , of course, i am looking forward to the next weekend. Till then, i'd better slog a bit more at work.

Nite all !

Busy week, fabulous sat!

It was a Fabulous evening! I had so much fun and laughter today, seemingly washing away all the stress that has been choking up my system.

Afternoon was lazy. A bit of house chores , dipped in the pool whilst catching up on my readings. Did a bit of shopping while waiting for Cristine for dinner. I was anticipating a somewhat gauche dinner. However, it turned out rather well. We headed to Wala Wala after which joining Babe , Pl and the rest. Shirlyn and rest of the unexpected band were rocking the whole place down! The ambience was at all time high. And she sang my fave number- "All i wanna do is make love to you.

Company was classic! I have never enjoyed the heterosexual slash mixed company for the longest time. Not since army days, i suppose. Its really light hearted talks amid the band's performance interval. We are going have a sat dinner next weekend ! O .. and ..i found another Albert Camus reader! Though not a fan, but for pl to have read his books, i am already liking her! heh.. I cant wait to see all of them again. :-)

On another note, this coming week will be helluva. Loads to do and plan.

Isnt this what life's all about - To have a good meal and chill out with good company at the end of a tired week. Thats already an accomplishment.

Nite folks ;-)

Moon River

"Life frightens me sometimes. I don't happen to take that as a premise for everything else. Though i am going to give it 100 percent and go as far as I can. I will take what I want and leave what I don't. That's how I intend to live my life, and if things go bad, I'll stop and reconsider at that point. An unfair society is a society that makes it possible to exploit your ability to your limits." - Nagasawa , Norwegian wood

There was a glisten in my eyes as i drove back home tonight. 鈴木重子 rendition of Moon River was on air on my iTrip. He used to collect all the different renditions of Moon River, for me. This version is my dearest.

I think i am feeling a tad too nostalgic to be in the right state to write in decency. Nite folks :-)

wheez

Phew. It has been one long day. I fell asleep while soaking in the bath tub just now. Rosie is so cute. She was lying beside the bath tub , dreaming of cat food again, as i lay scrubbing. Heh..she can be such an adorable kitty.

Poem by e.e cummings

it may not always be so; and i say

it may not always be so;and i say
that if your lips,which i have loved,should touch
another's,and your dear strong fingers clutch
his heart,as mine in time not far away;
if on another's face your sweet hair lay
in such a silence as i know,or such
great writhing words as,uttering overmuch,
stand helplessly before the spirit at bay;

if this should be,i say if this should be-
you of my heart,send me a little word;
that i may go unto him,and take his hands,
saying,Accept all happiness from me.
Then shall i turn my face,and hear one bird
sing terribly afar in the lost lands.
by e e cummings