I was in the gym during lunch time today and this song started playing and I have been looping it ever since. It has a melancholic twang that sparked me thinking about the entire year.

有多少愛可以重來　（范媛媛）

作詞：何厚華
作曲：黃卓穎

常常責怪自己　當初不應該
常常後悔沒有把妳留下來
為甚麼明明相愛
到最後還是要分開
是否我們總是　徘徊在心門之外

誰知道又和妳相遇在人海
命運如此安排　總教人無奈
這些年過得不好不壞
只是好像少了一個人存在
而我漸漸明白　妳仍然是我不變的關懷

有多少愛可以重來？
有多少人願意等待？
當懂得珍惜以後回來
卻不知那份愛 會不會還在

有多少愛可以重來？
有多少人值得等待？
當愛情已經桑田滄海
是否還有勇氣去愛？

I wish I am in Hongkong now, to spend my entire december break there with my big sister , Janet , Dorothy and the rest. I dun know why but Hongkong always seems like home with all my old buddies with me. It's not that I do not have great company here. But you know how old friends are - it seems almost telepathy for them to know how you are feeling. Anyway, I refused to give in to my instant gratification, age is really catching up and I have plans for my future. I cant go on living on holidays after holidays.

Hmm..let me pen down my thoughts after listening to this song.

Be it family, love and even friendships, there is no second take. If you screwed up during the first round , it will never be the same on second trying. if you have given it your best shots , there is really no more you can partake. We are , afterall, an integral fragility of the human emotions. Even if it is relived , how much can be let go and re-foster?

I do not believe in second chances. I only want to try my best whenever I am bestowed. To walk away from life not thinking about the "what if".

Its not about a life without regrets. Its a life living in the present , anticipating the future.