I finally am able to face it.

I got my web perks last week when I attended one of the countdown parties in KL.
The first thought that flashed through my mind was to read jay's profile.Dun ask me why but it just flashed thru my mind like second nature.

It has been at the back of my mind since then and i managed to set up an acct and logged on just now. It took me an hour to read through that 50-odd diary entries. I couldnt help but teared as I was reading it.

Its memories like this that reminds you how destructive love can be.
I have torment myself over this enough.

Indeed, he had been the guy that I had loved so dearly this lifetime. I am not sure if anyone could stir such emotion in me again. Not because I do not have the capacity to. But such melancholic love is enough to bear just one lifetime.

No, I am not pinning for anything.
I just wanted to be sure of myself. To test myself to know what I am heading into.

And I know its high time.
For storm trooper to march right into my life! [ right about soon]

:=)