Karaoke session!

In my view , this (left) is most picture prefect.
The rest are all for a laugh!







I looked so obscene singing into the mic! Do we call that innate behavior?Heh..





Kian looks fabulously ditzy in this one!










Thats Dac. Kian's friend cum ex-colleague.
The youngest chap amongst all of us.
That petrified , bemused expression was on
his face when Kian sang and
dac realised that the analogue was off all
along..

Broke!

I concede defeat and defiled my " Stop the nonsense splurging" campaign. Its 3 more days to the dateline but I am only surviving on shillings. So sigh..eat into my next month "pocket allowances".

I looked at the numerous-digits shopping bills in HK and the six hundred plus books buying bills and I just gone berserk. Told myself i have to stop this downright indulgence! Hence, 3 weeks back, I enforced this on myself and withdrew $250 for the rest of the month. I locked my cards in a deep dark closet at home , hoping i will forget where i placed it. Heh..

Regardless, a pat on my own back for the discipline for the last 3 weeks, to think that all my daily meal allowance and groceries cum socialising, are inclusive in that 250 bucks.

This month's target ( inclusive of this 3 days) = $500

This month is gonna be where the real temptations lie as
(a) My hongkong pals are coming during ND weekend
(b) The Majestic Queen of all haute couture shopping therapy is back next week! { Bilmey , its a mixed anticipation of ecstacy and fearfulness} hehe..Guess who that is..? DESSIE GAL! [yes , full caps]

My real challenge begins...

Really???

You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant. Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle. You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs. For you, comfort and calm are very important. You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection. You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Your Hidden Talent

You are a great communicator. You have a real way with words. You're never at a loss to explain what you mean or how you feel. People find it easy to empathize with you, no matter what your situation. When you're up, you make everyone happy. But when you're down, everyone suffers.

What's Your Hidden Talent?

Your Power Color Is Indigo

At Your Highest: You are on a fast track to success - and others believe in you. At Your Lowest: You require a lot of attention and praise. In Love: You see people as how you want them to be, not as how they are. How You're Attractive: You're dramatic flair makes others see you as mysterious and romantic. Your Eternal Question: "Does This Work Into My Future Plans?"

What's Your Power Color?

Great lunch and dinner

Had Killiney curry rice for lunch with Kian and homecooked chilli crab for dinner at Dylan's birthday today. Both dine was with great company :-)

better do my cardio tomorrow!

Besides the great food and company, i was rather embarassed when someone mentioned my blog nick , Aspiring Himbo, to everyone. I went beet root red. Fortunately, the red wine drinking conceals my flushed look and i just laughed it off. But all remarked that i can jolly well pass off as a fledging himbo , not an aspiring one..heh..that makes me flushed even more. I guess all of them were a tad too tipsy then. Then Michelle, a new fren, said i articulate too well to be an air head. Heh heh..i just went ..okay..enough of the overflowing compliments. All of you are gonna regret what you said the next day after the hangover. Right Dylan?

Anyway, they were all simply fun remarks to giggle and laugh at the poolside. Oh ya..Happy 27th Birthday to you, Dylan! :-) May this year be better than the previous.

Leashing pets + Pick-up line

Setting : Gym Abs Corner

Stranger: "Hey, you always seems to be fluttering from one station to another."
Me : " Huh. I m doing my gym regimen, isnt it supposed to be like this?"
Stranger : " But you seem so oblivious to the ppl ard you. Are you in a rush?"
Me : " Its supposed to be more intensive when you move quickly from one station to another. I am not into socialising. Sorry"
Stranger: " I see, by the way, my name is ******. You want to do lunch after your workout?"
Me : " Its lunch time now and i am in a rush. Thanks for the ask."

In my context, wrong pick up line. And i hate ppl not focusing on their gym. I mean, for queer sake, work hard in the gym lah! Dun be such a social butterfly in the gym.

******

I went to visit someone today. Its a Malay family, living in a private estate. The father was squabbling with a woman in track pants , holding on to two retrievers, when i arrived. The lady unleashed the two dogs whilst running in a park in front of his house. The father went forward and told the lady to put the leash back on for the two dogs, as there are numerous Malay families residing in the vicinity. The lady loses her cool and rant on about him being so unacommodating and diffcult. My client, the father, stated that it is in their religion that they should not have dire contact with any dogs and he is not directing on her dogs, but he is merely stated for the intent of the Malays living in that neighbourhood.

The squabble last a bit more than 15minutes and i stood listening. Incidentally, wing and i were just talking abt leashing dogs last night. I can emphatise with both parties but i think both of them can handle this animal cum religion issue in a more tactical and sensitive manner.

I am a Glam puss!

You Are a Glam Rocker!

You put the "show" in rock show with your larger than life self. No doubt, you are all about making good music... But what really gets you going is having an over the top show. Glitter, costumes, and wild hair are your thing - with some rock thrown in!

What Kind of Rocker Are You?

Bushed

Feeling lethargic, with my entire body aching. Praying its not the flu bug that has infected many that i know. I am turning in. Its ..blimey..only wednesday tomorrow. I miss holidays..

Movie: Mysterious Skin

Went to watch Mysterious Skin last night. Wanted to blog abt it last night but came back too late. The plot was intense though the cast seems a bit raw. Film largely revolves around a paedophile ruining the life of two kids. With a micro-intensity focused on the impact of childhood scars being atrophied in our lifes, till the extent of the stereotypes of guys or gals we fancy. It also touches darker issues like sex peddling, HIV, drugs etc.I , especially, like the scene in which Joseph Gordon was left brutually raped on the street and the first thing he thought of was his mum. The mum , though quirky, have this classic line that goes something along this line, " Dun you ever forget how much I love you. Dun you ever!" Am i reminiscing my own life story? Nah. Not into self-deprecating activities these days. i have enough. Besides, i m comfortable how my life is steering, for now.

Anyway, Classic plot.

P.S My amendment, entry of my rambling of NKF, on the toll-free line is not 1800- but 1900-. Thks Wing.

My birthdate

Your Birthdate: March 31

Your birthday suggests that you are a good organizer and manager, an energetic and dependable worker; attributes often showing success in the business world. Serious and sincere, you have the patience and determination necessary to accomplish a great deal. Your approach can be original, but often rigid and stubborn. Sensitivity may be present, but feeling are likely to be repressed. You are good with detail and insist on accuracy, but at times scatter energies. You're a practical thinker, but not without imagination. You love travel and don't like to live alone. You should probably marry early, for responsibility is necessary for your stability.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

My Agnes Br Gym bag

My Agnes B Gym bag
Originally uploaded by Himbolicious.

Wanted to flaunt my agnes b bag for a while but keep putting it off. I got it during my spree in hk. its really utility with all my gym togs and stuff inside, it still looks roomy. Plus point - light weight and water resistant. :-)

The deluded

Reading the news these days become such a bleak. Another bombing in London + S'pore being all so transparent by publishing the payslip of everyone in NKF. [I am sure morale there must be all time low] + One of my client working on Huang Na case briefly spoke to me abt this case, which i have chose to be oblivious to + Govt relaxes on Housing whilst having all time high bank loan rates + 25yo female found HIV positive while some doc put the blame on AFA whilst never finding the resolve to raise more awareness in S'pore. The list rambles on.

Its disheartening to see how our homeland has become such a secured place that has loses much sense. With the Gen-Y workforce being of higher calibre , does it equates to a community that has more liberty and forthcoming to voice and be heard?

" It is the perversity of a society that inherently denies a part of human inheritance." - Maurice, E.M Forster

Arghh..

you're a fashion whore... you live only to wear
versace and gucci. anything that gets in your
way, must be killed. love, friends or family
are not even in your mind, also long as you can
get your gold-digging hands on some versace
shoes! people like you should be shot!


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Rosie!!!

Just finished showering and cutting her nails. She scratched my foot while i was cutting her nails. And she was screaming and whining during her shower ,after skipping her bi-monthly shower, for more than a month after her spay. That is indeed the queen bee of my house.

i belong there!

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Finished!

I am finally done reading The half blood prince! Phew, i skipped lunch and rushed off straight after work, for e past 2 days. I have to admit this was better than the order of the phoenix. Someone was killed in this sequel and Harry Potter will not be returning to Hogwarts in the next book. Quite enjoy the twist of event.

Peeved

A hk fren of mine, H, called me up just now. We were talking about this guy , S, that is fond of me , based in HK. He confesses to me that he likes him. I told him i was cool with it and if it happens b/w both of them , let it. I am happy for both of them, If both are in love, its really their issue [ not that i have a say in it] Period. My fren ranted on that S still holds high hope of developing something more when [ if ] i am based in HK next yr. I told H i was cool with that as well. My fren that shot me this ' Of course you are cool with it! You are having all the fun in S'pore! ' I was thinking - "where was that coming from??'

I mean why go thru the motion of planning that it may happen if it may never materialise. Besides , i told S very clearly during my HK trip that we will remain pals unless something concrete materialise in HK. Yes, we do chat regularly on the phone. Thats about that. Not much of a firework anyway.

More than ever, i was peeved with my fren for using such an irrelevant accusation over S. I felt grossly misunderstood. However, i just remain my meeky tone with him and said that i need to return back to my Harry Potter reading. I will call him again tomorrow. He shot me another classic - " I never know you read". I felt like saying , just fark off, buddy.

However, he is a rather close pal of mine in hk. Hence , i just laughed it off and said, " Ya rite, its one of the blue moon tonight. "

Can't really blame him on it anyway. I have mantained a very casual , cheerful , and more than ever himbo-like , persona to most of my HK frens. Its not that i dun trust them or any sort close to this. Neither am i being pretentious. I just think i have no need to act so adult-ish all the time, esp when i always meet them during my holidays. Its like my alter-ego. Integral of my traits.

Really enough of rambling, i am really gonna go back to my reading. Just fark it.

Tired Day

I just got home. Went to watch Sin city with Kian & elmo. The shots were great but storyline was bland. I , especially , like the music arrangement and Jessica Alba. But too gory..

Had lunch with both babe and kian today. We were chatting and started to chat on our future plans.Babe shot me this " Work and money is not everything, sweetie" . And it has been ringing in my ears since. Do we take on the blood of our parents. Are our lifestyle, inevitably, engineered genetically? When both of them agree to consensus, it mildly freaked me. My folks , basically , soaked themselves in work and end up with a collapsed marriage. I cringed whenever i think of it. But unknowingly, it seems that i am living this life as well. Kinda saddens me today though i didnt really show it. [ Of course , both of you were great company]

At this very moment, i miss Leong terribly. I have never mention ,anything more than a brief ,abt him to anyone. Cause it sounds so insanely wrong and silly.Not sure whether he is reading this, but i just have to vex it out.

He is Mr Anonymous. The one that sent me texts and bday greetings a few months back.

After J and I parted, there was a period in which i shut myself from everyone. He was my source of strength. We started MSN-ing, and progress to phonecalls. It may be simply a hoax but he can feel where my insecurities and weariness was coming from. It was soothing. There were times that he could feel my frustration without my voicing it out. However, he has his own reservations. In last June, that just passed, he headed off to Vietnam for a 2 yr work stint. He has to go for the passion he feel for his work. I can feel that streak in him..enough said. I am feeling a bit emotional as i am penning this down.

The point that i am making out here is - Work will be somewhat secondary when I met the right one. I am game for the sacrifices. But will there be that one ? I still cherish that gleam of hope in it.

My new fave song in my iPod Playlist.


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美中不足

歌手：許志安, 葉德嫻 | 作曲：雷頌德

填詞：黃偉文 | 編曲：雷頌德

回去　回去找　命裡的　伴侶
別叫他(她)　為你等　下去
待你好　是我不　規矩　我有罪

其實不對　但我想試下去
是否會變　合拍的一對
你別賠罪　如無我准許
怎麼會　闖得進　情慾禁區

願你先撇下我　就當我遭遇橫禍
從此永訣像隔著河　遙望你
跟他(她)的　未來是　那樣諧和
沒我做負荷　該輕鬆更多

尚有她愛護我　難道你拂袖離座
留低愛侶　拋開枷鎖
餘孽太多　還何苦出錯
唯盼你故事到結局
完美裡那美中不足　會是我

明晚　難免的　難過的　時間
沒我呵　若你不　習慣
下了班　就與他(她)　歸家　吃晚飯

情話很冷　越對感覺越淡
萬千怨偶　共處的悲嘆
接受平淡　誰人有得揀
溫馨過　總好過　長住雪山

＊願你先撇下我　未到結束便離座
　留低最燦爛的花火
　來日你　安穩的　共兒孫　看著銀河
　漫天的星火　想得起我麼

　下半生各自過　仍在記憶內留座
　懷中有過　盛開花朵
　除掉結果　其餘得到過
　期盼你那愉快結局
　常記掛那美中不足　會是我＊

******

My Harry Potter Book

Okay, its rather embarassing. but i am waking up a bit earlier to russh to get my Harry Potter book before i scoff off to work. Hehe..

Kids with Cameras

Kids with Cameras is a non-profit organization that teaches the art of photography to marginalized children in communities around the world. We use photography to capture the imaginations of children, to empower them, building confidence, self-esteem and hope. We share their vision and voices with the world through exhibitions, books, websites and film. We are committed to furthering their general education beyond photography either by linking with local organizations to provide scholarships or by developing our own schools with a focus on leadership and the arts.

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In the heat of our local NKF saga, I stand as a disinterest party. I do wonder whether our heartlanders are more concerned about the committee's drawn back pay and bonuses are larger than theirs or rather how we are easily engined by the media to overlook the thinking process all along.

I am not an ardent fan of the console box and its entices. Thru-out recent years, I think the only time i voluntarily switched on the box, was to look at the SARS outbreak, tsunamis killer wave and more recently, the bombing and its aftermath in london. Other than than, i have zero interest in it . I am more a movie and dvd junkie anyway.

Besides, newspaper serves as my revenue of current and global affairs update. I indulge in reading the papers more as i think i am able to read and interpret watever that is wriiten in grammatical form, analysed at my own wavelength.

Its my growing worry and doubt about how local folks have ceased to think how they can contribute back to the society , other than means of monetary donations via 1800-hotlines tagged with lucky draws as gimmicks.

I have a friend , who freelances, that put aside a fixed amount of time to provide his freelance work, what he is best at, to non-profit organisation that he believes in. Its such a mockery when we, ourselves, do not even know the background and cause of the organisation that we are convicted to help.

Folks, perhaps this is a wake up call for all the ignorance that we bore ,are simply are own miserable inability to discern.

Penguin 70th anniversary

I just bought this collector's edition of Penguin 70 short stories by different authors. Its at kinokuniya selling at S$350 with 10% discount for members. Its a steal , for avid fans, as some writings have never been published or the titles were never brought in by S'pore ( Esp Gabriel Garcia Marquez & some Albert Camus books).
Some of my favorite great authors , that the collection includes,
1. Roald Dahl - Taste of the unexpected
2. John Steinbeck [ my secondary school literature book author] - Murder
3. F.Scott Fitzergerald - The diamond as big as the ritz
4. Virginia Woolf - Street Haunting
5. Gabriel Garcia Marquez- 17 poisoned Englishmen
6. George Orwell - [ One of my very respected author] - in defence of English cooking
7. Homer -The cave of the cyclops
8. ALBERT CAMUS [Yes, all caps = respected and well loved] - Summer in Algiers
9. Marian Keyes [ Dessie's favorite ] - Nothing ever happen in Tiffany's
10. Nick Hornby [ Babe's favorite] - Otherwise Pandemonium

*****

B : You are coming back for your ICT next month! I am looking forward to working with you again!
K: Wah..10 days, wat you wanna squeeze out of me ? Another PDS report or presentation?
B; Something that i just spearhead..will give you the details once you are back. Why? You excited?
K: Honestly, yes! I miss you all folks. Working with you was the best time of my life , sir .
B: Hey, where is this coming from? I heard you are doing pretty well from CC. Aren't you?
K: I am well. No worries. Its just that I feel lost time to time. It has never been easier all these years.
B: Hey! You have me to count on! Count CC in as well. We are both here, and always proud of you!

My sweet colonel from my army camp called me just now. The above was part of our conversation. And it just make my day [ or night in this case] . Just a bit of background on my relationship with this kind and sweet colonel, Col. B .

I was one of this trouble maker in camp that religiously goes for medical appointments , get all sort of excuse slips during my draft to army.

It was one of the darkest days, when i confess to my parents that i am queer and my family was breaking apart. I was full of angst for everything around me. My whole camp gave up on me, not much that they can do when i was excused , even to be shouted upon. ( Blimey..i cant imagine it now!) Col. B was oblivious to my quaked temperament. He summoned me to his office one fine day when my manpower officer was not in office- asked me to write the minutes for his day's meeting and emailed it to him the next day.

When i stepped into camp the next day, i was , again, summoned to his office. I was trembling then, thought i screwed up the minutes and the presentation he wants. Instead, he was impressed. From that day onwards, I became his PA. We spearhead and incorporate the six stigma, mentoring scheme and PDS into our battalion. It was hard work. But, gradually, it builds up my confidence all over again. I was a soldier that is respected for his commitments. Most importantly, this person taught me so much about life. His persona manifests in his passion in his work and belief in his man. Without him, i may jolly well still be that sunken ship.

Be it your kins, partner or friends. Everyone has that someone in your life that you look upon to. It is with this that we seek strength. To reinforce our core values on wat's right and wrong. To know that we have people there that believe in us.

Humdrums of life

Has been preoccupied with work lately. This seems rather a good cause as
1. I still likes what i am doing to give my great shot.
2. I am valued as a worker, by those who employed my service.
3. Keeps me busy mentally.

Would You?

Does anyone feels queasy when your friends update news of your ex's and, perhaps, their latest squeeze? I got affected momentarily today when i was chatting with a friend when i heard news of so and so? It was a moment of hmm.. and after which I just let it go. I believe ppl ends their entanglement and become ex's when both parties fail to meet to a common goal eventually or when fireworks fizzle. To whether both parties can forged a platonic friendship, i reckon not. If both could get along that well and agree unanimously, wat relevance to break up in the first place? if sex fizzles, relationship can go open, but when communication cease to exist, what platform to build even any friendship on?

Word of the day : Flaunt

*****

Just got back from the club, Happy. It's hilarious ppl watching with all the campy music roaring . Refreshing new and alien to me these days. It has been really a long time. But like wat i conclude, its better than cooping myself at home. Above that, i want to spend more time wif kian. Saw A.C.K just now. Its always such. Someone that has always been at the back of ur mind but just dun wish to cross path with , will just appear right in front of you. Perhaps that is God's way of wanting me to deal with things that i wanna avoid. Indeed, i am such - Worming back to my nutshell when i cant handle situations. Anyway, for anyone who has known me for moon years, will know who he is.He is The guy that shattered my heart some time back. It was french opera played thru my life. I still get all queasy whenever somone irks out his name. Its something i never want to face. at least not in the near future.

At this juncture, or more after the HK trip, its more with career and my loved ones, given utmost priority. I need to keep this focus till things seems more tangible. Not that i m ruling out the 'L' word, but its just not as important now.

i 'd better turn in. i got a long day ahead. Nites folk.

"有爱的人，把一辈子锁在爱恨情结里。
直到痛彻心扉之后，才了然破茧而出的美丽。
原来，幸福是懂得放手才开始的。"
Extract from my Febuary post, contributed by Babe

Today's Word - Balance

Kian and I have been playing this game of fave word of the day for the past few days..heh. And we both decide on this word today. Its kinda of fun. Cause language is something that we use in our daily life even for the most minute mode of communication. But yet we overlooked the beauty of it all.

Anyway, we had lunch today after waiting for the newly-crowned queen bee that reign the record of stretching the 15 minutes wait to 45 minutes! i did a little shopping in the midst of the '15 min' wait. Bought plain tees, sport shorts, weighing scale and a 'Closer' Dvd,. I normally stinge on cds and vcds these days. So this really is a personal favorite , to make me part with that $29.90.

Went to the temple after which. Wanted to ask about the new job. Got a bad but rather true predicament. its in mandarin. Will post it when i get to ask kian in on it again. Anyway, i m takin a step at a time. Que sera sera!

After working for a bit in the evening, went for a causal date. its a refreshing change of spending a saturaday night , rather than chiling out at home wif rosie. But think next week i will hit the clubs with Kian. But i need to get my beauty sleep in prep for just one night out next sat. Age is the reason, i reckon.

Cest la vie

Start to hang out and meet new ppl and frens. :-)

Lazy himbo

i am feelin lazy today.

Just post a question for you folks to ponder :

" What is your favorite word in the dictionary?"

Home Spa

I read in a newspaper article on the importance of keeping a hobby. It realigns our out-of-focus mind state. This himbo's sole hobby is to self indulge. In whatever manner one could come out with. From shopping, microdermabrasion, whacking the gym, quarterly dentist visits, to manicure etc.. the list seems never ending. Only when i am planning out these self indulgence, my mind blocks out even gorgeous bloke on the street. Fascinating but true. Sometimes, my jaws drop in disbelief to see the inordinate amount of money spent on upkeeping this hobby.Simply to keep myself happy.

Anyway, my blog title for this entry is - Home Spa. I just completed my 2hourshome spa in my bath tub. Its a full body hot sugar scrub, sea salt foot scrub , hair mask and complete with a moisture mask and milk with birdnest after the hot soak. heh..i can be so incredible. I cant imagine i have done so much then, until i write about it now.

I normally do this when my day at work gets too stressful. Yes indeed, today was one stressful hectic day. The more fearsome thought was the schedule to come. Its horrendous. Topped with a ICT coming up in August. [ Hope the deferment letter that i am going to write goes thru ]

Water has a therapeutic effect on me. When i submerged myself in the bathtub, the whole world shuts on me. Its paradoxical how i cease to acknowlege any sense of my surrounding. And yet, hearing of the water strokes, i waffle with my hands and legs in the small white tub ,becomes sharply acute. More amusing than ever is how much a fiery hot Arien like myself adore water. Its an irony!

******

I would want this blog remain incognito, other than my close knit of friends. Purpose of this blog - To those that i cannot ,most of the time,expresses well enough to put across my intent and others that cares for me who wants to remain forever anonymous.

Most importantly, my carte blanche to lash out incoherent outbursts of emotions and venom. Pertaining to my entry on white worshipping local scene, it is purely my observation, without a tinge of racism. A racist is anyone that detest a race for his or her color of the skin. I simply detest how the queer scene has evolved to such pathetic plight. Period.

Dialogue

CC : 你一星期７天都那么迟下班，生活还有意思吗？
K :　我从没认真想，我不知道。

My Sinful dinner

Gym hard today. Work even harder. Decide to reward myself with chilli crab. heh..was craving for it since last week. Decide to make a detour, to try my luck just now. It's yummylicious!

Last night out

Think age is catching up. Feel so exhausted after clubbing last night. Came home after gym for a short nap this afternoon before rushing to work. In brief, the comany was great. But the scene is such a letdown and it besieges me greatly.

A white worshipping pub where whites seems to wear their cute young asian boys as assessories. i got scornful looks from 'competitors ' asian boys albeit no pun intended in hanging out there. Another club was like a cross between MTF and just-unleashed-out juveniles. The cabaret shows were performed by the similar cast ten years back. I cannot be brought to even bemusement when some MTF groped their non-existent boobs , in desperate attempt to bring the crowd to applaud. Surprisingly, the crowd did.. And they roared with such enthusiasm which affirms the aplomb of the performers. Then i felt like the cuckoo in the fox's den.

Hopefully, the stashed no-frills airfare can bring these MTF and watever the rest to a greater height of entertainment and amusement.

My flickr mosiac

My Flickr ID

I am clubbing tonight!

Heh..finally gonna hit e club after hiatus of a year. Just to spend some time wif Kian. I have been rummaging my wardrobe. Gonna wear this plunging v-neck from gucci and my white washed helmut lang jeans. Oh and my raf simon belts! I am so loving it.

Current song

Current song : How am i supposed to live without you?
Artiste : Laura Fygi
Dedicated to: Leong
Reason : For the promise in vain